I’m sitting silently in the magical dark Looking outside through the spotless glass The sky is sparkling with the burning stars Staring closely at my special past The slow digging of my several scars The scene is deep & kind of vast The slo-mo movie of my own thoughts The daunting effect of those shaky clouds The infinite number of terrifying falls A few were undoubtedly my flawless flaws At some places I was dented & falsed But back then I didn’t use the mental floss So the holes started to constantly form A few shallow & some deeper slots The unbearable pain in my heavy heart Back then I couldn’t see me in my own orbs I was scared to stand for myself, tower tall Low in confidence would make me hold my talk The suppressed energy was my opaque wall
After several years, a unique sensation in my block As if I had found the key to my deadbolt lock My eyes could see through my formless soul The vulnerable moment was so crazy strong Cleansing began instantly through the salty drops My heartbeat weighed less than a single pound Time was holding its breath & simply paused Coz it was the first time I felt who I truly was The sensation can’t be described in any words It’s the new beginning with a roaring sound Finally I understood the meaning of constant falls It’s purely them who paved this unknown path The one that I wholeheartedly crawl & walk The great importance of the past in the now These learnings I carry from dusk till dawn The intuition is guiding me to mindfully evolve I can now see the resemblance of stars & scars Scars are the translucent tattoos I wear with proud Light & dark are innate fabrics of my transparent cloth
You see, trust is not just a simple word Without it, belief loses its true worth Without T, it’s just red-brown corrosive rust
I’ve been blessed with this ability to unearth It’s the moment when I was actually re-birthed I became a bit brain-less and somewhat dirt
Intuition guides me to listen to the unsaid words It’s when energy of communication stops matching the hertz It’s when there’re too many doubts under the surface of hurt
This way trust will never rise like a serene surge This way true love within can not be searched One day the inner & outer vibes need to merge
I know it isn’t easy to rebuild trust if it’s broken more than once But just don’t dwell in the stories that mind replays to reverse Try to connect with the nature of action & reaction of verbs
And if it is still crazy difficult to truly trust Then atleast be honest than to keep throwing the curves Coz what’s inside matters more than the sugarcoated-crust
Trust is the foundation of any solid bond in the Universe Family, friends, partner, pets, nature or work Without trust, there can never be respect, openness or love
👉 This is solely my pov…am not trying to define or prove anything…everyone has their reasons to trust or not to trust…and if it’s difficult to trust a person for any reason, at least be honest & vocal about it…gather the courage to say that as it is…coz that person deserves to know it…it will only be fair to both parties…
A unique composition of tiny matters Tightly packed in a labeled container Dancing spark triggers animated reaction Liftoff in a matter of a crazy short duration Unknown height of uncontrolled levitation Piercing the clouds of smoking dimension Fireworks in the sky with a deafening explosion Observing this scene in super slow motion A swirling pattern is the new revelation Unleashing sacred demon in Universal creation
To me, sacred demon is a zen master of different kind…this kind can be found in the pain-body, illness, suffering, difficult moments, imbalance or anything else of that sort…the whole perspective changes when one comes in contact with it…
Sacred demon is guiding me to…
look deeper…
observe & learn…
walk slower than the slowest if needed…
have a mindful approach…
take one breath at a time & forget about the rest…
appreciate the value of every word & step…
appreciate what I have at present than to focus on what I could have
see the beauty of this life
That’s the purpose of sacred demon in my eyes…but one has to “pay” to see this way…to reach this place…it’s crazy difficult at times but it’s not impossible if one is determined…this is how I see it…if I were seeing it as just a demon, then the whole story would be different…coz then it would simply “eat” me alive in no time…
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So here’s a different kind of sharing…it’s related to my younger son, Sofus-Samir…he has been passionate about 2 things…Animals & Fortnite…these days, it’s not so much Fortnite though…the main reason of Balou (the labrador dog) & Zorro (the cat) + some other cats previously joining our family is Sofus…he has always been attached to animals…
Since the past 3 months, he’s been going to Copenhagen Zoo to meet chimpanzees…yeah, chimpanzee family is his passion & love…he’s in the zoo 4-5 times a week…he feels home when he’s over there…one day, he wants to be a chimpanzee care taker…Sofus has been taking videos & photos at the Zoo…we, the parents are doing the same coz we find it interesting as well…the Zoo personnel knows him & the Chimp family recognize him…he communicates with them & observes how they behave…Sofus knows each & every chimp, including their individual personality….we thought why not support his passion & take it to the next level…why not share the pictures & videos with the rest of the world…why not let him grow his passion the way he wants to…why not tell his story…so, we’ve created his own YouTube channel last month…CHIMPANZEE TV—> youtube.com/@chimpanzee-tv
It’s been growing rapidly & we’re happy to see that people from all over the world are taking interest & subscribing to his channel…Just a few days ago, we created Instagram handle as well—> @chimpanzeetv_
If you have a kid in the family, who likes chimps &/or if you like them as well, then please do visit his YouTube Channel…the videos speak for themselves…please support Sofus by subscribing to his channel & whichever other ways you can…please spread the word to your friends & family if possible…it would mean a lot to him & of course, to me & the whole family…every single drop of your effort is highly appreciated 🙏✨❤️💫
The Backstory / Caption
Our younger son, Sous-Samir was diagnosed with Autism in 2019…today he’s 11 year old but when he was younger, he used to have bigger meltdowns…coz we, the parents & the previous preschool and school weren’t able to understand and handle his behaviour…we and the professionals around him didn’t have enough knowledge & guidance back then…later my wife and I found out that he has a PDA profile of autism as we started to observe him more & read about that type…it gave us much better understanding of the kiddo…and why previous autistic pedagogy had failed… luckily today we are in a much better place, but the early years has left its mark on him, making it difficult for him to overcome his fear of demands (PDA), particularly in a school context…
After a year of going to a public school with a small class for autist children and several traumatic experiences of retention, he ended up refusing going to school…and after a year at home, he was offered a special school for autistic children…however, this wasn’t easy for him either, like entering the premises…to be in the class room was close to impossible…the school tried everything they possibly could for more than a year but unfortunately, it didn’t work out well…they didn’t have expertise in PDA…but the municipality still kept forcing us & the school that he must continue…
The tussle with municipality started…several meetings with them, the consultants, psychologists etc…the municipality decided to send the kiddo to another school (chosen by them) with worse setup than the previous school…We did visit the school & talked with the principal & the personnel coz we wanted to give it a chance…even the principal of that school meant, they didn’t have the competence in PDA & it’s not the right choice…but the municipality didn’t care…they were still forcing us…so we lodged a complaint against them around one year back…The Danish Supervisory Board (Ankestyrelsen in danish), who was supposed to take the decision, had forgotten our case & we heard from them after one year…finally the decision came, where they had asked the municipality to reopen the case, check everything properly, take the decision & contact us…But in this back & forth tussle with the municipality, 4 years of Sofus’ potential school life has been lost…He has asked us several times why he simply can’t go to a school just like the other kids…it’s quite a difficult question, you know…he gets sad & angry at times coz the kiddo misses school, especially the school mates part- the companionship…
Last year, we were interviewed by a journalist…a couple of articles were then published in the local newspaper about Sofus…it’s to share Sofus’ story & to share how badly the municipality was handling our & several other cases…perhaps, due to pressure from the management – cost cutting structure…whatever it may be, it has taken away so many years & a lot of energy…and not to forget, this all has given stress…
On 10th June, we were informed that the municipality is still recommending the same school…that school choice was the result, we lodged our first complaint…so nothing new has come out from their side…this is crazy frustrating, disappointing & we’re quite shaken…the kiddo is very sad & angry…he was showing those emotions verbally & as if he were an alpha chimp…the whole 2024 will be gone in this tussle…we’ll be lodging a new complaint…the fight continues…sighs…
However, we strongly believe whatever happens, it happens for a reason…the Universe has its own plan…and while leaning into that trust, we will support his passion for animals as much as we can…and hope you will support him too by subscribing to his YouTube channel and/or following him on Instagram…thank you very much for reading this far and for your love, support & care ✨💜💫
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Just over a month ago, I was experimenting to create a new tune…I simply liked the initial sound…so I kept adding some more tracks intuitively, to give it some texture…it was only recently I realized that this beat & a piece that I wrote back then are actually made for each other…My Very First Poem – Speechless I Became…I was feeling this crazy need to express my state of Being, so I wrote this poem…I had never tried to write a single line before…it was the beginning of the next chapter in my life – this poetic journey…
The beat found the piece for this spoken word & they together created the energy that made me choose these photos…they’re telling a story…nothing was planned beforehand…I never do when it comes to poetry…and the amount of time I’ve used is…well……but I really enjoyed every single moment…
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I’m freewriting in the dark with the diamond blade The sharp edge is dancing wild with the lightning speed The sparks of these lines re-form that lively phase When I was drawn to this life on my dying slate Hemorrhage had hammered my house in the surprising way I was down on the floor when I finished eating my evening meal
I couldn’t rise & walk towards my grounded bed I was struggling quite a lot with no balanced stance So I began to slowly crawl with my warrior pace While I was holding the drops from my sighing face I was living that instance so raw from the shocking place So I broke into small pieces & some enormous like the shiny vase
Tears did the crystal clear talk on my wavy stage Fear started to poke delicate walls of my clotted brain I couldn’t sleep under the sheet at all for several nights & days That scene was running in slo-mo like the never ending race I would replay & then simply pause to absorb & sense It was an unbelievable moment after all of my reality check
The Universe was initiating a call to tell it’s time for a change Coz I had been sleeping for too long in the shallow depths I felt instantly I wasn’t resting anymore in the coffin case That waking up call made me explore the enlightened space Weakness in me to the core but I started to gain some strength It’s time to transform my spots into the constellation of true self
This is pure sharing based on my experience…I’m neither suggesting anything nor giving any kind of advice…I’ve observed one thing about trauma in me that it doesn’t leave the body & the system…and perhaps, it will never…but the way I deal with it has changed…if I’m open to see it with the eyes of acceptance, understanding & compassion, then it doesn’t affect me with the same intensity as it used to…a mood swing is bare minimal…sometimes I do relive those scenes through the memory screen…but I don’t stop that “movie” instantly even when it’s not a nice place to be…the magical fireworks of healing has different colours, projections & decibels…it’s not necessarily a peaceful process…I feel, it’s better to see & observe the traumatic experience mindfully & let it slowly settle down than to simply block it…feel it, be with it & talk about it to the trusted dear ones and/or seek professional help if necessary…and of course, write poetry or choose another way to express it…
I’m simply sharing that hospital scene from 2019 in the form of this poetry…my purpose isn’t to gain sympathy nor am I feeling sorry for me…coz I know what I have…I have fully accepted it & I have made peace with it
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I primarily write poems about my experiences. An experience could be an emotion, a lesson, self-realization or simply a pure desire. I bring forward the real subjects, which encircle my life & of those related to me. I’m not afraid of writing about provocative matters, which others might say, “it’s not ok”. It’s never about attacking someone but being transparent; to be true to myself. Writing poems is therapeutic, it’s like my own way of healing me. Poem is me.
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Trip-Track is a very special poem to me, that I published on 2nd November 2019. This is what I wrote back then – “Words are simply flowing in me. I feel such a crazy need to scribble this poem. I’m sensing something at subconscious level. I can feel, I’m going to walk on a burning track soon. I don’t know why I feel that. I’m perhaps connected to The Almighty, which is telling me something is coming my way. So better “pack your baggage”.”
On 7th November 2019, my left hand was kinda “sleeping”. First I dropped the car keys & then a plate & later I couldn’t press remote control buttons. I was thinking ‘ok, that’s something new’ – a weird feeling. I contacted acute medical helpline & soon I was rushed to the hospital where I was diagnosed with brain haemorrhage on the right side. It was at this moment I realized why the higher energies made me write Trip-Track & I was like WOW even though I was in OUCH condition.
The bleeding has taken away a few things from me but in return, it has given me the biggest gift, which is to live in the moment & not to worry about the next one – the future. On top, I’m finally able to see & know me. I’m not saying it’s still not challenging for me to live with the critical sickness. But it’s like I had to go through this all to finally wake up from the sleep. Now mindful baby-steps is my leap. Reset button was pressed by the Almighty.
I consider 7th November as my second birth date & that’s why I published my poetry collection – Lightning Rhymes on 07/11/2021. Trip-Track is a part of my book.
My intention isn’t to earn sympathy, that sorry / sad / bad feeling or any of that sort. It’s only a sharing from my heart to yours. I hope you’d enjoy listening to this piece of mine. Thank you very much ✨❤️💫
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To me both darkness & light are like yin & yang; powerful in their own ways. Darkness has normally been seen as something negative. But in reality, it has its own intense light if one sees it with an open heart. Light & dark are zen-masters of unique kinds.
You can also find ‘Darkness – The Intense Light’ in my poetry collection – Lightning Rhymes.
Thank you very much for listening to me…Much love 🖤✨🤍💫
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