I’m sitting silently in the magical dark Looking outside through the spotless glass The sky is sparkling with the burning stars Staring closely at my special past The slow digging of my several scars The scene is deep & kind of vast The slo-mo movie of my own thoughts The daunting effect of those shaky clouds The infinite number of terrifying falls A few were undoubtedly my flawless flaws At some places I was dented & falsed But back then I didn’t use the mental floss So the holes started to constantly form A few shallow & some deeper slots The unbearable pain in my heavy heart Back then I couldn’t see me in my own orbs I was scared to stand for myself, tower tall Low in confidence would make me hold my talk The suppressed energy was my opaque wall
After several years, a unique sensation in my block As if I had found the key to my deadbolt lock My eyes could see through my formless soul The vulnerable moment was so crazy strong Cleansing began instantly through the salty drops My heartbeat weighed less than a single pound Time was holding its breath & simply paused Coz it was the first time I felt who I truly was The sensation can’t be described in any words It’s the new beginning with a roaring sound Finally I understood the meaning of constant falls It’s purely them who paved this unknown path The one that I wholeheartedly crawl & walk The great importance of the past in the now These learnings I carry from dusk till dawn The intuition is guiding me to mindfully evolve I can now see the resemblance of stars & scars Scars are the translucent tattoos I wear with proud Light & dark are innate fabrics of my transparent cloth
So here’s a different kind of sharing…it’s related to my younger son, Sofus-Samir…he has been passionate about 2 things…Animals & Fortnite…these days, it’s not so much Fortnite though…the main reason of Balou (the labrador dog) & Zorro (the cat) + some other cats previously joining our family is Sofus…he has always been attached to animals…
Since the past 3 months, he’s been going to Copenhagen Zoo to meet chimpanzees…yeah, chimpanzee family is his passion & love…he’s in the zoo 4-5 times a week…he feels home when he’s over there…one day, he wants to be a chimpanzee care taker…Sofus has been taking videos & photos at the Zoo…we, the parents are doing the same coz we find it interesting as well…the Zoo personnel knows him & the Chimp family recognize him…he communicates with them & observes how they behave…Sofus knows each & every chimp, including their individual personality….we thought why not support his passion & take it to the next level…why not share the pictures & videos with the rest of the world…why not let him grow his passion the way he wants to…why not tell his story…so, we’ve created his own YouTube channel last month…CHIMPANZEE TV—> youtube.com/@chimpanzee-tv
It’s been growing rapidly & we’re happy to see that people from all over the world are taking interest & subscribing to his channel…Just a few days ago, we created Instagram handle as well—> @chimpanzeetv_
If you have a kid in the family, who likes chimps &/or if you like them as well, then please do visit his YouTube Channel…the videos speak for themselves…please support Sofus by subscribing to his channel & whichever other ways you can…please spread the word to your friends & family if possible…it would mean a lot to him & of course, to me & the whole family…every single drop of your effort is highly appreciated 🙏✨❤️💫
The Backstory / Caption
Our younger son, Sous-Samir was diagnosed with Autism in 2019…today he’s 11 year old but when he was younger, he used to have bigger meltdowns…coz we, the parents & the previous preschool and school weren’t able to understand and handle his behaviour…we and the professionals around him didn’t have enough knowledge & guidance back then…later my wife and I found out that he has a PDA profile of autism as we started to observe him more & read about that type…it gave us much better understanding of the kiddo…and why previous autistic pedagogy had failed… luckily today we are in a much better place, but the early years has left its mark on him, making it difficult for him to overcome his fear of demands (PDA), particularly in a school context…
After a year of going to a public school with a small class for autist children and several traumatic experiences of retention, he ended up refusing going to school…and after a year at home, he was offered a special school for autistic children…however, this wasn’t easy for him either, like entering the premises…to be in the class room was close to impossible…the school tried everything they possibly could for more than a year but unfortunately, it didn’t work out well…they didn’t have expertise in PDA…but the municipality still kept forcing us & the school that he must continue…
The tussle with municipality started…several meetings with them, the consultants, psychologists etc…the municipality decided to send the kiddo to another school (chosen by them) with worse setup than the previous school…We did visit the school & talked with the principal & the personnel coz we wanted to give it a chance…even the principal of that school meant, they didn’t have the competence in PDA & it’s not the right choice…but the municipality didn’t care…they were still forcing us…so we lodged a complaint against them around one year back…The Danish Supervisory Board (Ankestyrelsen in danish), who was supposed to take the decision, had forgotten our case & we heard from them after one year…finally the decision came, where they had asked the municipality to reopen the case, check everything properly, take the decision & contact us…But in this back & forth tussle with the municipality, 4 years of Sofus’ potential school life has been lost…He has asked us several times why he simply can’t go to a school just like the other kids…it’s quite a difficult question, you know…he gets sad & angry at times coz the kiddo misses school, especially the school mates part- the companionship…
Last year, we were interviewed by a journalist…a couple of articles were then published in the local newspaper about Sofus…it’s to share Sofus’ story & to share how badly the municipality was handling our & several other cases…perhaps, due to pressure from the management – cost cutting structure…whatever it may be, it has taken away so many years & a lot of energy…and not to forget, this all has given stress…
On 10th June, we were informed that the municipality is still recommending the same school…that school choice was the result, we lodged our first complaint…so nothing new has come out from their side…this is crazy frustrating, disappointing & we’re quite shaken…the kiddo is very sad & angry…he was showing those emotions verbally & as if he were an alpha chimp…the whole 2024 will be gone in this tussle…we’ll be lodging a new complaint…the fight continues…sighs…
However, we strongly believe whatever happens, it happens for a reason…the Universe has its own plan…and while leaning into that trust, we will support his passion for animals as much as we can…and hope you will support him too by subscribing to his YouTube channel and/or following him on Instagram…thank you very much for reading this far and for your love, support & care ✨💜💫
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I’ve always enjoyed Nadia’s spoken word, who is from the Instagram world…the poetry community over there knows that she has a beautiful, expressive & hypnotic voice…so when she asked me to read this piece of hers, I agreed pretty fast…here’s why…normally, I don’t say “yes” just like that coz I’m no spoken word artist…I need to feel & sense the lines before I even think in that direction…I did read Nadia’s piece out loud in my room back then when she had posted it on her insta page…I simply loved the feel & the flow of her words…it created a certain sound in me…that’s what I’ve tried to present through this collab…I hope you would enjoy this spoken word on my YouTube channel.
Credit
– The author of this prose is Nadia Rana (heartofnadia)
– The background video of Lighthouse goes to ChristianBodhi at Pixabay
– The background music is created, mixed & mastered in GarageBand. I own the music, the voice & the video of this spoken word.
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Wounds visible on surface 37 metal staples my piercing Projection displays millipede 4 times per 86400 seconds 45 days on morphine Forcing relief in bloodstream Tipsy my sole sense Eyes open still dreaming Memories haunting simply Screaming sighs of lonely Whispering words with no gain Scratching glass of craving Tearing apart my raw skin Bleeding river but no pain Inner beast roaring Body burning no flames Letting go with no claims New energy breathing Flying high with no wings Black & white my true zen Scars slowly healing Marks surely breathing Am I morphing into the dope thing?
Just yesterday, I had to take doc prescribed morphine after my working hours coz of unbearable pain of some different kind in my knees & shins…so, I was kinda drowsy-high afterwards…it reminded me of the time when I had to take it for 45 continuous days after the knee surgery last year…my physiotherapist told me this morning that one experiences such pain once in a while…it’s quite normal to have it but it’s intense…this poem birthed from my high time yesterday…
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Sometimes being a broken fool covered in scratches gifted by the edgy pool paints us to the hue of crazy good coz we then tend to zoom in to the wounds that we consciously start to sew with the pointed needle holding the lengthy loop of healing but it hurts when the eye of this I shaped tool pierces the raw surface which is bleeding the transparent blues but by doing so the holes in this dotted zone bring us sooner or later closer to the I times two which looks like the letter U of this magical Universe that we try to keep aligned inside with the heavy tunes of pure love
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Just over a month ago, I was experimenting to create a new tune…I simply liked the initial sound…so I kept adding some more tracks intuitively, to give it some texture…it was only recently I realized that this beat & a piece that I wrote back then are actually made for each other…My Very First Poem – Speechless I Became…I was feeling this crazy need to express my state of Being, so I wrote this poem…I had never tried to write a single line before…it was the beginning of the next chapter in my life – this poetic journey…
The beat found the piece for this spoken word & they together created the energy that made me choose these photos…they’re telling a story…nothing was planned beforehand…I never do when it comes to poetry…and the amount of time I’ve used is…well……but I really enjoyed every single moment…
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I can clearly recall the night when this poem came to me. The sleepless night & restlessness in me with those memories turned into this poem and my night into morning. Creating spoken word of ‘The Mourn Sky’ is another baby-step forward towards letting go & to see a glimpse of love in pain ✨❤️💫
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It’s a single take recording of a piece that I wrote in October 2019…this is the longest poem, that I’ve ever written…it’s more of a storytelling – a story of joy, happiness, courage, family pressure, sadness, pain, sacrifice, suffering & trauma and it has come from the seabed of my heart…
Please bear with me as this spoken word is almost 9 min 30 sec long…I know, it’s crazy long; it’s also my very first time…do know that I’m not seeking anything…it’s simply a pure sharing in this open space…
Back in October 2022, Gabriela Marie Milton asked me if I would be interested in submitting a poem for her very first project under her own publishing house, Literary Revelations…I said Yes coz of 2 reasons, even though I had stopped participating in anthologies…I’ve known Gabriela (through WordPress) almost from the very beginning of my poetry journey…she’s a kind hearted person, a very talented writer, a dedicated professional & I have deep respect for her…Secondly, the theme of the anthology – Hidden in Childhood…I felt this poem has found its place…Gabriela was exceptionally kind coz she accepted my poem even though it’s llllonggg…it’s an honour to be published along with several other amazing & talented poets…Hidden in Childhood: A Poetry Anthology is available on Amazon
I hope you’d give your precious time & listen to this spoken word…thank you very much ✨❤️💫
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I had written down this poem in May 2023 when I actually experienced this all…I decided not to post it at that time…Instead, I posted ‘The Story’…you’re welcome to check it out if you haven’t already read it…this poem is like the second part of The Story…it’s about what was happening inside of me…today seems the right time to finally post this poem (with some fine tuning)…coz sometimes, you relive the old scenes…they appear as if that incident has just happened…so, that’s what I’m sharing with you..and please don’t worry…coz my condition is sort of stable brainwise ✨🤍💫
The Source
His forehead was sweaty His eyes were blurry His face was stiffening He couldn’t even speak His arm was numb already His legs felt so weak He walked as if he were tipsy Coz he was very dizzy He lost his balance suddenly But it’s the world that seemed shaky His mates held him instantly They guided him to the chair in vicinity So he could sit down coz he was uneasy They were keeping an eye on him constantly One was pushing the numbers coz it’s an emergency
He kept sweating drops He was slipping down From the chair he was sitting on He was getting frustrated now Old memories were flashing raw Inside he was crumbling down He was struggling to express in words In that moment he wasn’t alone at all Everybody seemed to have the worried sound The paramedics were reaching fast He was mentally preparing for another bout He was screaming in his mind so loud This crazy battle was once again very on But it was slowly wearing him down Another ride in the EMS towards the red zone
Oh It was happening again Thoughts Were running in his head Up No, he couldn’t get up Nope He wasn’t giving up easily Hope He always had with him But He was still mad at him Coz He couldn’t do anything Caught In this situation once again Cause He didn’t know anything yet
Still He was sitting in silence Now He was quitely present Family He was thinking of constantly Focused He was in touch with himself Visualizing He would press the button reset Breathing navinspoetry.com / @navinspoetry The free flow of air in his body Composed Even when everything looked impossible Key Unlocking himself from the gripping patterns Being Reconnecting with the source of the highest power
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